I have been having the most hollow nights.. Been down with fever for last four days.. and right now I might b at my most sentimental phase.. forgive me!
Tell me exactly why it happens that the person who might most understand u and u think they are ur world and they are for-ever.. just another moment they are the people who least understand u. Oh! I blame noone. God knows I love y'all but I have been lonely for quite sometime now and I don't know which way should I head trust me even the directions doesnt help.
I have loved my work and I don't mind being absorbed into something that keeps u out f the boredom but lately I haven't been much into in , me or my body don't know but I am really weak.. Both at heart and mind i never considered dem apart anyways.. Everyday I feel so at peace when I see my mom trust me it helps like never ever. It strengthns me up to have her in front of my eyes coz I know I have been down. I cnt tell her whats wrong I know she would feel bad abt not being able to help me and I never want her to feel that way. Its been rainning for a while now.. I dont hate rains.. but its really rainning cats and dogs.
I might like some coffee I might like some company.. will you mind having coffee with me? I dont find my friends, I dont find my family, I dnt find the one I love.. Will u for a moment join me? Ofcourse u will and then tommrrw I might feel u are my best friend and again u might leave me for you want space. Amazing how the world recycles. Whatever.
Its embrassing but my friendship day was really lonesome... We went shopping that was the gud part, bought clothes and all star and blackberry fr my brother.. that moment was happiness but next moment when I was on that sofa facebooking I thought "am i not supposed to be out wid my only retards?" . you know what my mind said then.. "Yes, but noone bothers."
That's life and the tragedy its brings tagged along with the best part it has. It was a pleasure to see one of my best friends sterday, he sure seemed not him but it was pretty moment to have him there just talking to him for after like a month? What? A month.. really? I cnt believe it.
Someone out there ought to know that I am very very very very lonely without them and all I want them to do is just talk.. talk to me.. I miss you ! why i need dis goddamn words to tell u dont u simply understand? how is it so hard? you have known me fr yrs in my best and my worst and today just why i shud write dis goddamn blog?
Hell yeah ! i am possesive I dnt like to share you and i completely understand that aint right and thats exactly what keeps me ultra quite. I get hurt but atleast u seem fine..
but dont make me do dis for long i might lose it. I aint strong just dont expect me to be... recover yourself and be back.
to the one I love and to my best friends.. to my family and to my cousins.
I love you to death.. and after. too sentimental i understand.. but this is it.
